Thomas Kostiuk

Hi!

Thank you for coming here at my site and for your interest in my art! I named this article "new start", because i want to start over again,, new web site, and i have in mind new art.. 

Many times i get flashes of ideas, if i only could realize more of them on canvas or other formats... I also sometimes dream in the nights about new artworks, it have happened sometimes that i try to take from the dream and put it into shape. Build house i dreamed about one night and build in 3D program,,

Some say the artist is just like a medium, who the art flows through.. Sometimes i wonder is it me who invented this artwork or is it a spirit who leads me to do this like that.. 

Many thoughts comes into my mind now.. About the human mind, spirit,colors,tones,music.. I named this site also Art & Life,,, It stick together.. I once wrote, "I have lived a life who make me do art like i do".. For those who know me, i come from a background of drugs, i started early in the teens,, and now i have quitted,and hope i never do that again. It is 4 years since last time now. And the surreal twist i have in many of my paintings, can be linked to my experience i had on a drug.

...Art and life....

another thing is "Art & fear", a person wrote a book with that title.. I have not read this book,, but  the title gave sence for me.  One thing is what i intended for the artwork, and another thing is what the artwork "says" after you finished. When I go into dialogue with the artwork after a time, I start to interpret the different symbols i have used, and starts to compare with my life- past/present/future worries. I think all persons interpret regarding their life experience. And we have different horizons after what we have experienced. It´s complex. And we like different things, originals, like snowflakes. Life----happens....

A seed- An egg....Becomes a unike flower

To paint can be almost like speaking.. what shall i speak about?

Well, i guess is best to speak from my experience- something i have first hand information about, something I have lived or lives.. Well,, i can speak of this beautiful fall we have here in Norway now.. I like the fall very much, and for long time I have wanted to paint a october landscape, with all the nice colors we experience in the nature this season of the year.. 

-Some of my paintings (specially the "Landskrap" series) is like from another planet, straight from the fantasy world can be a nice break from all happening in the real world, but sometimes i interpret my life in them, maybe others do also? i dont know.. 

As said earlier, about my background with drugs, that could be something i could talk about/paint about, describe the addiction, and the ups, the downs, the denial, the bad choices, the consequence.. How could this be paintings? Im not sure yet.

Another thing i have first hand experience from is sickness,, I was sick as child and after i quitted drugs i became psychotic. "Thought buildings" who was on wild ways, i was afraid and thought the worst was about to happen me.. This could also be subject for paintings in someway.

Ups and downs,,,, the waves,,,,fall and recovery,,,,,seasons of life,,,,,beautiful flowers in the field,,,,colorfields,,,  the light.... the dark,,,, the contrasts,, the small variations,,,,,the dramatic,,, the sobre

Some is afraid for the dark- and others are afraid for the light,, 

the strange

the unexpected

...from my father,i inherit a folder with articles abot world religions,human rights,magic,political directions,,, I think that my father wanted us to have something to belive in, and in this folder i could read about what my heart wanted to learn more about and find something to belive in,, I found that existencialism was right for me after a period as atheist, i was about 17 years that time, and later i come to know more about the new age movement, and started to read many books about that, was so hungry after thruth,peace and light, but later i found what i was looking after in Jesus and the Bible. I started on a bible school to learn more, and there was much talk about "All is forgiven", and how much God loves us..   

I love that message, i found out God loved me and will stick close and never leave me or forsake me...

...Other paintings I´ve done dont say much, just decorative..

So all this i guess i have lots in my heart to talk/paint about

My fathers name is Eirik Josef Hansen, but his name was Kostiuk at birth, from him i taken this name,, and as a act to honor him and to get to know him more, i will paint a portrait of him, my father, and try to find out more about him. We lost him in 1984, i adored him, but only met him twice, i know where to get more photos of him and get more information about him, who he was and what he was interested in. I know he became christian, and was smart, and interested in the astronomy/universe and he played guitar and sung..

Im starting to get visions of how this portrait can be allready,, I will continue to write in this article as the process goes forth.. so if you want to follow this process, come back and see how/where this is going...

Thanks for reading and listening to what i said here, feel free to write me a coment, your own thoughts about what said

Within 2 weeks i will try to have a work finished, but i share the process here with images and writings with you..

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Hi again.. now two weeks has gone+ 2-3 more weeks, and i have no painting of my father finished. I got now these three photos,

but waiting for more photos, and see if they be better for a painting. In the upper picture I see his face good, but the guitar is barley showing. and in the other two theres nice scenes, but his face is not showing too good. Not enough details for a painting.. But if i shall paint one of these three pictures, i had shoosen the middle one. But I´ll wait for more photos, maybe they are better. I got a question recently about "if i have thought much about painting a portrait of my father?". Well, ... i must honest say, i have not thought that much about it in past times, but my father has been special to me, even though i dont remember him, because i only met him twice, and both times was before i was 3 years old. But i always gets emotional when it comes to my father. I sometimes talk to him, tell him about things in my life, and I cries most of the times i talk with him. And, after i wrote last time here, and told you about how my father wanted us children to have something to believe in, i felt thankful to him, for giving me the option to choose the road i wanted to go. To honor him, and to get to know him more, i will paint this portrait of him and talk to those who knew him and hear more about him. My mom and I have already had a conversation about him since i wrote last time, and i got more information about how relation they had. How they met, how long they been together and why they broke up. and more.

Whitin two more weeks from now, i think i have a nice photo and are about to start the process of painting this portrait. today is 9th of November, so in the end of the month i post new pictures and how i make the painting. Thank you for reading!  

Hi again. I have received more photos now, and here are some of them.

I like all of them. Here you can see his mother and father also. Astrid and Adam.

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My father used to play this song on guitar and sung:

"Alle har hast, ingen har tid, alle har sitt å gjøre,

hvem bryr seg om, når jeg er redd, når jeg har stilt meg ille

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Da er det godt, å tenke på, at Gud har tid å høre, 

Ja, Du har tid, en evighet, ja tid å lytte stille."

(And quickly translated to english:)

"Everybody has haste,non have time, all has its own to do,

who cares, when im afraid, when I have put myself in truble,

Then its good, to think about, God has time to listen,

Yea, You got time, and eternity,yea time to listen quietly"

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Thought I wanted to share this with you all, I think its so lovely...

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